I Feel Home

“There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting.” 
― L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables


Everyday I think of this quote and laugh...it is so true! I am always swinging from one Audrey to another. At school I change from class to class. This is the class Audrey is quiet in. This is the class Audrey can't stop talking. This is the class Audrey falls a sleep in. This is the class Audrey giggles and cannot stop. Then, once I arrive at work, this is the Audrey who is quiet and always listening...and I continually am encouraged to be louder and learn more. Off to dance! This is the goofy/silent/crying/laughing/listening/ignoring Audrey.
And now I am home...with loads of work looming before me, and I am the procrastination Audrey.
They are all me...but if I could just be consistent life would be so much easier.
But I suppose it would not be "half so interesting." 
I wonder if anyone will be able to understand all my different Audreys and like me for each and every one. When asked, "are you generally outgoing or shy? Are you an introvert or an extrovert," all I can ever say is...depends. 
Depending on the day one may or may not want to talk to "this" Audrey. And it's not like I have multiple personalities...it just depends.
I think that's how everyone is.
But I think it's interesting...
I think when I wear my cowboy boots I am more of myself. More of a consistent Audrey. I don't even ride horses...or have a country accent...I just love them. They mean comfort and adventure and thoughts and music and poetry and loveliness and a sense of confidence. 

And there it is. That is, in essence, the Audrey that I most like to be. 

I think the things that make us most ourselves should be what we adorn ourselves with. The people who makes us feel most at home are who we should surround ourselves with. 

I don't like feeling like I don't belong.

I don't know why

But you keep

Appearing in my head

Something

About your name

Is 

Home.

I don't know why

But your face

Gazing over there

Looks like a part

Of my 

Home.

I don't know why

But when I glance

Over at you

I feel

Home.

At home is how I feel in my boots. At home is how I feel with those around me in that picture. At home is where I want to be.

I think O.A.R. said it well,

"There are few things pure in this world anymore,
and home is one of the few."

So, in my boots I feel home. All the different Audreys come together and sit a while, in harmony. It's nice:)

"Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely." -1 Corinthians 13:12